25
Apr
Cold,immune and indifferent.
This is so very unlike me, or rather the past version of me.
Even the weird and crappy dreams don’t bother me all that much. It’s as if my overprotective brain is shielding me from any and all trauma. I’m wondering where all that anger and sadness is funneling to?
No clarity of thought. And no clarity of feelings either.
Every time I feel something heavy in my heart, brain decides to reroute those feelings.
The wall around me keeps growing thicker. Brick after brick, it grows more and more impenetrable.
There is a strange sense of pride in response to all of this.
Some of my time was supposed to be spent soul searching. But that never happened. Brother brain decided it to be an unnecessary (and possibly risky) waste of time.
I feel as if I’m losing my sense of humanity. Slowly.
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